Tag Archives: loss

Forgive My Weakness

Forgive my weakness
I let you go
I saw you struggling
And did not know
How much you needed
The time and space
To get used to
My warm embrace

Forgive my weakness
I can’t let go
My heart is struggling
And needs to know
If you ever needed
My time and space
If you got used to
Love’s warm embrace

Forgive my weakness
I need to go
Now I am struggling
Don’t want to know
How much he needed
Your time and space
How you grew used to
His warm embrace


Blinded by Hope

You’d think
I’d know better by now,
but I’m blinded.
You’d think
I’d know better by now.
Blinded by hope,
ain’t that a joke?
Blinded by hope!

Where is
the respect that I’ve earned?
And where
is the love I deserve?
Where is the love I deserve?

I thought
I was happy somehow
living alone,
closing the door,
pulling the shades.
Made me darker inside;
living alone.
Leave me alone!

Where is
the respect that I’ve earned?
And where
is the love I deserve?
Where is the love I deserve?

Used to dream
you back in my arms.
Broken dreams
and tired arms.
Used to drive
miles just to see you.
What a stupid fool.
Blinded by hope.

Or was it
by love?
Was it by love?


Apathy

Sift and sift,

day after day;

nepenthe

is never found.

.

Empty handed,

save dismay;

apathy

grows abound.

.

Tall tales

entertain

and the heart

wants to believe.

.

But integrity

swoops right in

to protect us

from deceit.


Still Hanging On

It’s been so long that I can’t remember
the details of how I ended up here,
but there are emotions that come through clear
to remind me we are not together.

And there are some that just make me shiver,
if I give in to Hope and pray you’re near,
for it’s your love that I both miss and fear
knowing that this penance is forever.

So I dangle where you left me that day,
naked and exposed and played like a pawn,
suspended in midair like captured prey
waiting to be skinned, but to find you’ve gone.

And though years I’ve waited, day after day,
I’m sure you know that I’m still hanging on.


A Thousand Days Without You

With a lump in my throat
and tears in my eyes,
I take a deep breath
and sadly surmise:
a thousand days,
a thousand nights
I have been standing
here without you.

I can swallow my pride
and dry off my tears,
but who can bring back
all of those years?

There is nothing to soothe
this aching inside,
but to hold Hope’s hand
in this ebbing tide
of a thousand days,
a thousand nights
standing alone
without you.

But who’s to say
just what is wrong
and what is right?
I’m still without you!

With a lump in my throat
and tears in my eyes,
I take a deep breath
and realize…
I’m still standing
here without you.


Delete

I don’t
want to
remember.

And I don’t
want to
forget.

All the love
that we two
shared.

And the pain
that we two
fared,

But
my mind
doesn’t have
a delete key.

So
I’m left here
to ponder
my regrets.


Aftertaste

I pause

and ponder

the aftertaste

that lingers in

your sudden wake.

And then

I wonder

how I’ll ever

turn it’s finish

non-existent.


Pulling The Plug

I’ve broken all physical ties
And severed the server of lies.
My heart can’t sort through
The lies from the truth
So I’m pulling the plug tonight.

Just one last look at your picture
And the plastic smile on your face.
If everyone knew
The unfaithful you
I’m certain that would end the chase.

But you know that I could never
Stoop down to a level so low.
So I pull the plug
And I feel the tug
In my heart as I let you go.

Screen’s gone black save a dot of light,
A speck of Hope, receding plight.
Now my mind’s gone numb
Sans your forceful thumb
And fingers ’round my heart so tight.


Ink and Paper

I’m
praying
you will heed
the words you read,
the words I write.
I just might
confess
all.
With semantics I’m brazen
and fearless.
Hoping you will find me
blameless.

Ain’t it obvious, I could care less?
Ink and paper drive me…shameless!

I’m
praying
you will need
the words you read,
the words I write.
I just might
undress
all
idle antics to wake in you,
more or less,
what’s left of me.
Am I hopeless?

Ain’t it obvious, I could care less?
Ink and paper drive me…shameless!


Heartstrings

Once taut and well tuned
Played String Concerto for Two
Faithful song of Love
Now tattered and torn heart strings
Lay song-less within my chest