Forgive My Weakness

Forgive my weakness
I let you go
I saw you struggling
And did not know
How much you needed
The time and space
To get used to
My warm embrace

Forgive my weakness
I can’t let go
My heart is struggling
And needs to know
If you ever needed
My time and space
If you got used to
Love’s warm embrace

Forgive my weakness
I need to go
Now I am struggling
Don’t want to know
How much he needed
Your time and space
How you grew used to
His warm embrace

Blinded by Hope

You’d think
I’d know better by now,
but I’m blinded.
You’d think
I’d know better by now.
Blinded by hope,
ain’t that a joke?
Blinded by hope!

Where is
the respect that I’ve earned?
And where
is the love I deserve?
Where is the love I deserve?

I thought
I was happy somehow
living alone,
closing the door,
pulling the shades.
Made me darker inside;
living alone.
Leave me alone!

Where is
the respect that I’ve earned?
And where
is the love I deserve?
Where is the love I deserve?

Used to dream
you back in my arms.
Broken dreams
and tired arms.
Used to drive
miles just to see you.
What a stupid fool.
Blinded by hope.

Or was it
by love?
Was it by love?

Apathy

Sift and sift,

day after day;

nepenthe

is never found.

.

Empty handed,

save dismay;

apathy

grows abound.

.

Tall tales

entertain

and the heart

wants to believe.

.

But integrity

swoops right in

to protect us

from deceit.

Still Hanging On

It’s been so long that I can’t remember
the details of how I ended up here,
but there are emotions that come through clear
to remind me we are not together.

And there are some that just make me shiver,
if I give in to Hope and pray you’re near,
for it’s your love that I both miss and fear
knowing that this penance is forever.

So I dangle where you left me that day,
naked and exposed and played like a pawn,
suspended in midair like captured prey
waiting to be skinned, but to find you’ve gone.

And though years I’ve waited, day after day,
I’m sure you know that I’m still hanging on.

A Thousand Days Without You

With a lump in my throat
and tears in my eyes,
I take a deep breath
and sadly surmise:
a thousand days,
a thousand nights
I have been standing
here without you.

I can swallow my pride
and dry off my tears,
but who can bring back
all of those years?

There is nothing to soothe
this aching inside,
but to hold Hope’s hand
in this ebbing tide
of a thousand days,
a thousand nights
standing alone
without you.

But who’s to say
just what is wrong
and what is right?
I’m still without you!

With a lump in my throat
and tears in my eyes,
I take a deep breath
and realize…
I’m still standing
here without you.

Delete

I don’t
want to
remember.

And I don’t
want to
forget.

All the love
that we two
shared.

And the pain
that we two
fared,

But
my mind
doesn’t have
a delete key.

So
I’m left here
to ponder
my regrets.

Forlorn

A forlorn boulder
in this cold and dreary lake,
I lay amidst a million
other hopeless, somber souls…

In the frigid shadows
of an onyx forest,
I long to find
any sign of life.

For not a ripple in these waters,
not a whistle in the wind,
not a falling needle
from the pines
or a pebble rolling
from these mountains
will send me hope of life.
Or death.

Truly am I,
in a still life—
A frame
frozen in time!

“Breathtakingly beautiful!”,
one might say
at a first glance.
But scrutinize with mine eyes
and realize
it’s vile truth:

“Painstakingly brutal!”,
I dare say,
for I dwell within the shadows,
lost among a million
hopeless,
somber souls!

I am imprisoned by a forest,
crippled by my form,
sinking in these waters…

desolate,
dismal,
desperately alone.

Aftertaste

I pause

and ponder

the aftertaste

that lingers in

your sudden wake.

And then

I wonder

how I’ll ever

turn it’s finish

non-existent.

Pulling The Plug

I’ve broken all physical ties
And severed the server of lies.
My heart can’t sort through
The lies from the truth
So I’m pulling the plug tonight.

Just one last look at your picture
And the plastic smile on your face.
If everyone knew
The unfaithful you
I’m certain that would end the chase.

But you know that I could never
Stoop down to a level so low.
So I pull the plug
And I feel the tug
In my heart as I let you go.

Screen’s gone black save a dot of light,
A speck of Hope, receding plight.
Now my mind’s gone numb
Sans your forceful thumb
And fingers ’round my heart so tight.

Celestial Encounter

A celestial
encounter
beneath Orion
I remember;
his arms
outstretched,
his strength
I seized.

The wind
blew cold,
a chill
ran through me.
A star
flew by
as you approached.

Then standing
in your arms,
I don’t want
to let go.
Whisper my
goodbyes,
but The Hunter,
he knows…

I’ve set my aim
too high
on a beast
like your heart.

Much too late
I realized
the stars
will keep us
apart.